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Saturday, July 17, 2004
after thursday night, i seriously thought everything would go on fine and of cuz better!
went to school on friday.. feeling so enthusiastic.. more than iv ever felt these days. went to class.. nothing much.. went parade square finally saw her. yup.. den life went on the same. issit the same? mebbe it was worse bah? in fact, we only spoke like one miserable sentence today? i mean she asked me a question... haiz. maybe muz give her sum time..
life went on as usual .. after school rushed off. yup becoz of certain reasons.. wanted to go study. but realised that ive really got no mood, besides i was feeling rather tired. went to bedok library ferst.. den decided to take a walk. in the end took bus to marine parade library.. studied and nearly fell asleep.. geeez.. too bad then. but managed to piah and flip thru everything la.
the journey home was.. erm okay? couldn get to sleep as i chose the wrong seat on the bus.. there was sum unknown stuff in a plastic bag underneath my seat so i dun to sleep?.. den i ended up humming the co songs that we played before.. think its hua mu lan... yeah..
reached home, ate dinner.. den i got pissed with my brother. he's so rude and haiz.. bad that u have a brother that is like only two years younger and know all the tricks that i know two years ago. besides, ppl these days are becuming worse and worser.. double the dosage!
whole evening was messaging ppl... darn my smses are going to bao this month! but nvm..
ok, i tried to study. i flipped thru aths in mum;s room.. as well as watch the tvee.. i quit studying at 9pm.. den watched the channel 8 show.. the one belinda's acting in..ok, its not a really good show, but guess it feels different watching the show that an actress u've talked to is acting in?..
so decided to turn in early.. wad for if i couldn even study?. did sum stretching beofer i slept, like the night before.. yup.. den suddenly my left leg duno wad happen thing sumthing happneed to the muscle or nerve sumthing liddat la..
today was woken up by the heavy downpour! and i mean downpour! it rained like hell... south west monsoon huh? thunder so loud and lightning so bright! den 4am liddat.. subconsciously was counting the seconds between each thunder and lightning. .read in an encyclopedia before that if u know the time difference, then u'd know the distance the thunder is occuring.. sumthing liddat lah? so ended up not sleeping well.. everytime it rains heavily, i wun sleep well.. den quite scary la.. the loud thunder. i used to be scared a few years ago.. cuz i sleeping alone mah..
woke up early.. den my left leg aching.. must be becos of last night.. ate breakfast den went to school. thot classroom would be open. i went to school early havin the hopes that she'd be there.. den can talk. but no.. the bloody classroom wasn open.. the class gers were so enthu.. all sitting at the walless area there studying.. took out my notes and started "studying".. blah- nothing could get into my head.
emaths test was blah.. ok..considering the fact that i din really study hard for it. i mean, mebe i dun regret now,.. but later when i get back my papers, i realised that im 2marks short for getting another grade.. den i'd regret.. cuz i left a 2mark question blank and forgot totally that i left it blank!
biology ah.. HMM. the essay sounds easy huh? but i duno whether i got my facts correct annot la, luckily im able to remember the homeostasis.. duno whenther i got the details right annot la.. die.. annyhow do already la.. think ive tried my best yah.. considering the fact that i wasn in the right mood ot study for anything this week,,
after biology, went into co room.. got ei zheng meeting.. yup meeting lorh.. den discuss..
after that, kaiying, lynn, gavin, wangui, weixun and me went to watch the dazu.. geez den kelvin walked in holding hp talking i think. whoa! den look so tuan zhang qi pai! kewl-
after watching dazu, me, ky and lynn went kfc to eat bah.. den we were talking abt ppl.. liddat lorh.. geez i wonder if they know.. but i doubt so la horh?..
den went home lroh.. was thinknig about duno wad on the bus oso.. could not sleep. den messaged xiaoting.. yay.. she asked me abt wad we did during e meeting ma. .den decided to message the details to the other sec4s who were not present as well.. uh-hhuh.. den continued messaging for so lnog.. until around 7plus i guess.. quite happie. duno.
just the feeling that ive changed .well ppl do change it ain surprising.
haiz.. passing down soon. relaised that i will miss co.. i think anyway it has been kinda in my life since lnog lnog ago. i believe i'd continue joining co..
hmmm..duno wad to get for them.. for her and for them.. planned to go out to look see today.. but din.. yup.. haiz, den gotta type out the minutes and report that i owe! darn.. in chinese? that would take hours again.. haiz.. den i chucked sum minutes sumwhere around the world.. thinknig that ive already typed it, but did not.. i think.. irritating. duno whther can find it annot la.. if not, den too bad! wanted to type tongiht one.. but never mind lroh.. monday shall remind myself to tidy my locker again! it seems as if im tidying my locker every single day.. wednesday xiaoting was helping me-->i saw the minutes lying arnd sumwhere there.. den friday i tidied again.
alot of mistakes in typing today.. cannot be bothered anymore.. so irritating.. every week after timepractice i'd go out.. and guess wad, and there'd be fast food! darn! den after every time practice, i'd go slack totally for the weekends until monday when school reopens again! but this week leh,.. like still got alot of loose ends that need tying up.. many things that need to be thought and rethought again..
oh yeah just watched 13 going on 30.. stupid show.. den my bro just talked to me abt the agent cody banks 2 show.. duno him lar.. jsut now during his dinner, he finished eating and just refused to claen up.. summore argue with me.. den i gotta clean up after him! wah lao..
yup, duno wad to type already.. guess im jsut like thinking too mcuh these few days.. sumtimes i thot livin alone in e wrold would be fine.. it does seem nice.. but i guess u'l nid pple too..just gotta help myself survive thru this..
cyahh.. oh yeah.. wanna thank wangui n shuhui for their small small letter! 
xie le!
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