memories-
Sunday, November 28, 2004
oh well.
what can i sae but i surrender?
couldn't sleep for a few reasons last night. until 2am plus, managed to psycho myself to sleep.
was excited this morning. my ferst day! ah. met waikit n xiaoting on the bus. its really weird la. summore waikit this kind... 
during everything, was concentratn on tryin to play. haha-its nice. i sat beside chinyong. ha. ya ya i haf decided on another thing today. dur lunch..ate with stef, waikit n chinyong.other than waikit yeah. den ya lorh. after everything, wanted to go back but found tt i haf no key. took 158 with everybody..but i was kinda feelin weird tt the older 3 r not mixin with us... n tt i can feel that she was tryin to make conversation. god knows why. hmm. then took mrt with xuanzhong. really akward. i was tryin to make conversation with no common topic. bad.
anyway. jiamin requested for a *ahem* my special hug! hahaha- i felt shocked n surprised uh. ever since the seniors left n noone gd to appreciate much except for those who refuse my appreciation n ever since sum bad stuff started in class, my hug attacks no longer lived. both sad n glad.more sad though. cant think why.
in the end coz of sum reasons, decided tt instead of gg to coriander n waste my now precious seconds away, i go collect my house keys frm parents at woodlands den make my way home. yup.
came home! yeah. ate, den practised erhu. ha. i will not stop practising those songs until the dates r over n im convinced that i haf no chance anymore.
i am so confused. im swayin...
then i came online. what i read really made me feel like an asshole. i feel so stupid. now what. its too late. is life meant to be someone else's game?
tomorrow i hope for the best. seriously i do. u know what i want. pls dun forget.
21:43
-keeps me alive
