memories-
Sunday, December 26, 2004
i am supposedly in a good mood. but got abit not good mood after reading someone's blog. goddamn why i shouldn even bother. anyway let me get back into good mood.
today shicheng concert 2nd day. i was damn tired as far as i know. my brain was resting at mars when i met waikit at suntec. went shoppin for stuff n found out tt christmas sale is actually not bad. my pocket a big big hole liaos. no time no everything. so really appreciate those in shicheng who bothered to give a card or present..like grace waikit wenjing. i haf great seniors la. i jus read grace's card. read wenjing's yesterday. the contents are really different from what u'll normally receive from juniors.. aiyah anyway they dun cum here to read one. after reading wenjing's card, felt like our gap has been drawn a teeny weeny bit closer lorhs. duno how to express it la. hais.. how i wish i haf an older sibling now..instead of the youngr one always bullying me. guess what then i'll be taken care of- jus like wad i get in shicheng. 
talking about cards, received from juniors like kayee n peifen. yup. as usual kayee full of advices n peifen as usual quite crap i can only find one useful n heartwarming sentence. 
but thanks anyway its the thought tt counts.
i wrote many many cards. but i always dun seem to haf included everyone. aiyahs..alot of ppl oso nv write for everyone. but its like for me..once i write for a few i must give almost all. duno why also. den tt ppl around will keep asking where's theirs. well. i know sum joking la..but all i know is i m not tt kind of character. maybe i should learn that to try to blend in huh? i wrote n did cards until 3am yesterday. but i did not manage to pass yexiang's his. weixun oso. both of them are the seniors who do not fail to leave comments in my Livejournal. be it encouragements or advice. wanna thank them alot. jiamin oso.actually i was thinking i wun mind if the whole world around me reads my blogs. i dun tell ppl wad i say here anyway..now is mainly juniors read la. but they duno really know how to interprete what i mean too right? with ppl like yexiang around..makes me feel that i got this pillar to support me whenever i cannot make it. advices n encouragements start flooding in. just like recently the shicheng crisis. three of them posted comments.
on to concert n rehearsal. rehearsal tt time super tired. guess what i could even doze off for a sec or two during hong lou meng. the singer was so style. i expected her to be wangguiying's gang..but turned out to be not. took somemore pictures today..but very little because i dun really dare to ask ppl take pic with me la. told ya already i must learn to be abit more hou lian pi..only took with tszshan n grace. i wanted to take with wenjing's batch n the rgs gers...but din manage it. hais.
concert today was as sucky as can be. nevertheless, like what i told weixun, i enjoyed it. because of the people mainly. shicheng end liao. quite sad huh. i have learnt alot from participating in this concert. together with the seniors..old old ones.. not really quite as i expected la. they quite friendly n stuff liddat so not really kana obstro until so jiatlat. n this does tell me that i still need to enhance my experience n skills.
after concert, decided to get my aching arms to work n move instruments.i realise i love to kana ordered by seniors tt i like//ppl like huiling's batch..tszshan grace..just got tt feeling tt i'll jus do everything for them. no la..dun whether its true annot la but it jus gives me the thinking tt its because they trust us to do it properly den make us do. yup. positive thinking anyway.
after everything, went with the seniors to eat. i feel so reserved. in my heart, i'd so very like to chat n fool around with them. but sumhow i feel that im in the wrong place with the wrong group of pple. get it? meaning i'd like very much for interaction time but there is none. mebe its up to us juniors to take the initiative ? i hate this kind of feeling. as well as the feeling that i haf alot to tell a person but i simply cant make out how i should go about it or put it across. ppl who went were : wenjing jiada jiamin shuxian xiaoqi mingshun xiuwan yingchun shihui waikit n me. got this weird weird feeling again la. tt explains the abit grouchy me in the hawker centre at old airport road. ate stingray horfun satay.. shared by yingchun jiamin shihui waikit me. i seriously dun really see the point of us gonig out. when the seniors take one table n we 5 juniorer ones take another table. 
eat n left hurriedly. when we were trying to flag a cab. suddenly realised tt haven took pic with them yet..so rushed back take a few shots den go home liao..wah they all kana -_-" by the reason we went back. gees. but of course, the foto makes my happiness level go up much much higher.. 
of course reason i blog is secretely hoping that ppl whom are involved see what i type.. n of cos how i feel la but quite slim chance never mind. i blog to relieve my brain of unnecessary stress. :)
oh i saw kimseng n jiexin at the concert! hehheh. so jiexin still remembers me. great. i thot im totally wiped out from her memory. talking about them..very long never see jingwen already. wonder how is she.. n oh i saw n talked to jiahui frm wenjing's batch yesterday too. n she remember me too. i feel kinda glad tt ppl remember me..like hanshuo. those old ones..
then there's this photographer who came to take foto for us. she's ex dhscoxyzian. great. 5 yrs older than wenjing n ten older than me. super seh la. but what made me amuse was tt wenjing know her quite ok-ily. imagine that even years ago seniors come back to fenzu. seniors like 5 years older. kewl tradition. let me see..so 5 yrs older than this yrs sec2 batch would be sharon's batch. i doubt the sec2s know them well enough to even joke with them. get what im driving at? shicheng is the only hope. ppl like haoyong all the old kias..
i guess i've said my share. another very rare honest entry by sharonang.
01:25
-keeps me alive
