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Wednesday, February 02, 2005
昨天洁莹反复说了这句话"..还是德明的最好.." 使我感触良多..不知是否因为还没真正体会到人生的意义.. 其实说好是好,但是也不能向往着说这句话的那一天, 因为这只能露出我单调的初院生活.
hell..don't know why suddenly type chinese. i wanted chinese for the words inside the quotation marks only. haaha. 不知为什么..这几天虽然心情不怎么好,但是怎么挤也挤不出好的东西写. its like back to the old days..where by i feel that i have alot to say but end up with nothing to say. this is worse feeling one could have. lols. maybe its pms. maybe i jus don't even have the peace and time to sort out my thoughts carefully. maybe im just trying to throw everything worth blogging about away (i.e the unpleasant stuff). now, what i feel is that im work overloaded. maybe its because im still in the holidaying mood? but luckily, i just about finished the stuff i have to do for saturday. phew one off the list. still got alot for chuguo stuff to do. argh. the booklet, the shirt design...decided to chiong everything on friday night. oh shucks. i don't even know when's the next meeting. it better not be on this friday. tsk. im like putting aside all my stupid tutorials (althou ive completed most of them) jus to slack around abit.
i don't understand why everyday of the last few weeks ive been sleeping before 11pm..but now im still honeymooning at my blog. tomorrow's the long day. the longest day, yet the shortest one, because i don't haf CCA.
let me talk about today. morning as usual..went to do the stuff w kaiying. then lessons? today's lessons all very slack. besides, a nice surprise from lester jus kept me awake for quite long. awake as in not sleeping, but doesn mean paying attention. im totally behind the maths lectures! and im here..happily blogging with my maths lecture notes wide open in front of me. tsktsk..i am thinking of doing something nice for my angel and mortal..especially my angel. heehee.. i shall think. anyway these few days..keep seeing my angel n mortal at the class bench. lalala. my mortal's irritating still haven replied me! grr.
i stayed at the class bench after school for awhile to watch them play cards. hmm them= lester shuhan mongoose... still got some other ppl la..den went for pathetic CO. ok don't shoot me again..pple linking here from jiamin's blog. the rehearsal was damn silly. both songs also got mistakes so obvious somemore. don't know play for what. as for me. ha i've only touched the songs once. twice, if including today. fenzu was silly. dazu was silly. but somehow, i managed to survive. anyway right. i think the xian yue is not really particularly nice. j1s there is now alot of CHS, 1 nanyang, 1 stnics and 2(???) dhs. the st nics one is in SYCO. zai la. keep talking about weird songs ive nv hrd of. similarly, the songs i talk about is unheard of? ok their name is popular, but not as a song.. but wah she heard of 岳飞 leh. our dearest SYF song. boo. totally feel quite miserable there. cos everyone's like SO BLOODY GOOD. the stnics one keep talking about composers, musicians n she even said "i don't think u ever saw ling fu qiang cos he's a very old senior of dunman's" well. WHATEVER.*rolls* SYCO good la. anyway i really think dunman is living in their own world of chinese orchestra. well...more exactly, its the world of 郑朝吉. don't know considered new era or old. probably old. i don't exactly know if its good, but the culture's really conducive. don't know whent the gong fa arrow heads started evolving from the correct ones too. anyway ANYTHING. i keep saying sooner or later i'll quit. but i really don't know when and if i will ever too..but i don't want to live the rest of my life complaining about CO and disliking CO. argh.
once i came home, i chionged the stuff..for two hours and finally finished! tomorrow will do other personal stuff and then understand the lectures i nv pay attention to. if got time i shall head for the gym too. friday shall chiong trip stuff. *pant pant*
ok. i shall read maths for awhile before sleeping. yay i feel much better already. BYE ~
22:47
-keeps me alive
