memories-
Sunday, March 20, 2005
god. i might not know what im doing or what ive have done. but afterall it was she who said that we should clearly know how each other is feeling. learnt from lesson and not going to delete the entry even thou i kinda regret typing it.
i hope she reads it soon.
as i predicted, i couldn sleep last night. i read the storybook. i fwded more than 50 messages. i still cant sleep.
dis morning i was woken up by a call from this person. i so wanna hear ur troubles i so wanna help you, but i cant. learnt something frm him too. actually i duno what to do now that i know tt certain ppl haven been exactly nice to me doubting me but still acting like everythings perfectly alright. i wun mind taking a trip down into zys or jds mind now to check out more i wonder what they think abt me now thanks to someone. i so like wanna explain myself. but forget it. shant defend shant do anything cus im half in d wrong. im wrong becus i cant assert myself in front of them.
evening, i just went to check out something from my Lj archives..i found another entry that made me think. pity i cant trace back the reply entry on another blog cus i think itd bring back even more memories and thoughts. its either archived deep down in blogger or stuck somewhere on diaryland. if im nt wrong its 28/11/04 on my Lj. cant believe that i'd type something like that out.
anyway. its either running or watching lordofdrings for me later. dad needs the com. cyah`
19:05
-keeps me alive
