memories-
Friday, March 25, 2005
nothings brewin. im BORED.
dun wanna make myself think of d days events too. sigh. i tried my best i went out with them but i cant help feelin a little uneasy. i think im nt d sort who can hang arnd wif grps of ppl. i guess im better off myself.
keep eatin big food and alot of stuff these few days. its not only d calories its d money!
life does seem a little boring w/o yanni serene bruce or chengyang.
when bruces letter came today. amanda read it out. den d gers were all like going "OH I'M so SAD". me? feelingless or just dun sae out. arnt i always like dat, am i? shrugs.
nt in a veri good mood. just feel like being alone now. or mayb with them tt bunch of silly piggs bac at msia trip. sigh*
was wif jieying n jiamin for awhile today. was sleeping for one hour in students lounge today. was....feeling quite left out d whole day.
had a stomachache. well nt d normal kind its d kind i keep getting few months back. had as usual stupid freaking headaches n neckaches.
i find myself pressurising myself to do work. to do revision. i hate my physics tutor. basically HC's physics department sucks like a pile of stinking shit. we'r gonna haf a change of GP tutor. rats we r gettin a RELIEF teacher. i hope HE's nt like beloved samuel tan. fuck- ask him to go reflect man. who was d one who caused me to lose interest in phy. hah. ask himself why am i still listening to bio lectures, doing maths tutorials and filling in blanks in chem notes? today stil dare to rant at our class. god if only we can req for a change of tcher.
i need to learn something. bud i duno wad. ratsratsrats im supposed to b able to fit into an environment well what haf i learnt in 3yrs of dhspsb. no passion, no commitment, no service.
look at d erhu standg alone by my table. keep telling myself to TOUCH it. but everytime im free my hw comes to me. only occassionally when i feel really bored or i have to wait till im alone at home, den i practice.
long weekends dis time. tml gg msia. i hope i will b able to get my shoes n bag n of cus a better neck. im freaking pissed.
-typed dis on my private blog. but i decided to publish it anyway. shall update d one meant for public blogs other days.
its dunmans sports day. i wonder how was it.
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-keeps me alive
