memories-
Sunday, March 27, 2005
sighs. everytime i go to msn spaces i get really ? oh well nvm. i musnt expect like too much.
ytd i went to msia. there was coffeebean there which made me think of something. i know why hc sucks. theres no coffee bean nearby. but thats nt the point. i miss d starbucks @ marine parade library. sigh. how i wish i were in vj. rmbr march hols'04 went to study dere with kayee n waikit n saw jon there. rmbr sum of our cls gers went there to do amaths after timeprac and how we smuggled big packets of lays into d lib too. i rmbr jus gg there with lijun to study for sec3 eoys. even the when majority of d time was spent alone at d lib..it was jus pure fine memories to me. id travel all d way fr home to d lib to study for d whole day. gosh i even rmbr d time when me, serene, peini n i think chrystal were there sumtime in feb or mar04 looking for books n i was eating d kaya toast. how i wish i cud go there to study again. i jus wish but i seriously cant fufil this thing cus practically speaking its impossible.
starbucks at changi has been frequented by xiaoting n me feeling like taitais out for a coffee.starbucks at plazasing.. coffeebean @ singapore post.. and of cus mos burger at plaza sing r my favourite alone hangouts. sigh. mos@plaza sing was quite comical one day. rmbr me blogging abt sitting beside a couple who were going to watch d eye? ha n d guy told d woman nt to watch cus she said she wundn get pregnant after watching d horror film.
wassup man. hc gives me the feeling of "i must go home immediately after school".damned. i MUST fucking make it a routine to travel to the east weekly or something. i miss bugis. i miss tm n century square. i miss parkway. rah*. EVERYWHERE. i dun wan stupid CORO, or KAP. damn damn damn. ask me out quick! im in serious need of going OUT and spending money (if i have any).
i rmbr BEDOK. where i used to follow zirui n her gang there. stalk xiaoting n mabel there. met yinghao @ d library, going to bedok lib to MUG for time practices..and theres toapayoh lib n d one n only time ive been there is wif peini in sec2/3. sigh. i rmbr lynns housing estate althou ive only been there once with clara n xiaoting/kaiying. drinking bubble tea.
ok its getting to me. i even miss PASIR RIS. d chalets there. and EAST COAST PARK. keep asking myself to go cycling there one day.
kampong arang? stadium mac/kfc. kallang mrt mac n soyabean shop. aljunied icecream uncle. eunos hawker center. everywhere. been there with lotsa ppl. ok i miss DHS hostel food too. even thou its nt really delicious. i feel like everything i said belongs to US, to ME, to dunman high. today when d hcanoe seniors were saying they want to go old airport rd to eat i was feeling a little funny inside me. like "hc ppl arnt allowed in d east".
totally nostalgic.
whats really nice abt hc huh. bukit timah's nt d place for me. i rmbr gg out after dis shicheng practice. going out after chouwei meeting..whads there at bukit timah area? nothing but cutechicken kap serenectr wadeva. argh.
i keep comparing i keep complaining. shucks. but im nt hinting tt i wana change jcs la. its just tt i really cant let go of anything tt has happened before. i will get really sad if i see anything tt reminds me of the past.
i want to go to dunman like get an excuse say "go thank teacher" or "collect something from someone"..but i dun feel like going back to dunman cus im a freaking foreign object. kinda contridicting myself but it makes lotsa sense la. foreign object, alien..anything but a dunmanian. darndarndarn. i dun wanna be old. when i think of d juniors i think of myself. its like wah ive graduated? when i used to be fooling arnd with them n stuff liddat. i really cant help thinking la.
im always into one of my quiet moods when im with the hc ple. like d day we went to cafe wadeva. sigh. i duno wad they think of me too. i keep trying so hard to find my previous self. alwaes happy noisy and ugly but i jus cant find it back. whenever im noisy or happy i feel it so fake.
hmm. enuff of crap. talk abt my day. fri wenta msia. got kinda lost searching for d second link. cant recall anything frm the recent msia trip maybe we were O-N C-O-A-C-H (fuck lucky that-woman-who-thinks-she-is-so-great din go on the trip with us) , nothing like being in a car. today went on a super eating mode. after training in the morning ate a piece of bread. den wenta eat lots of food at dis contonese restaurant. dim sum n alot of nonsense were crammed into my stomach which still felt greedy aft tt. i refused (cus i haf a weak heart. haha) to look at the bill even thou my mum was sitting beside me. went to coriander cafe at thomson (woodlands one stpped operation already) ate somemore. came home ate cus the uncle vincent n aunty alice were eating. past ten, they came with janice so i ate: potato chips, mashed potatoes, banana chips, one spoon of ben n jerrys, banana..at nearly eleven at night. i bet with you its more than 3kg gain.
yum.oh yeah. today's junda's freaking birthday. need to go for present hunt soon. bloodi guy wants slippers! sigh i rmbr last yr we went on a FREAK hunt for wallets. and he's using d one we bought for him now! haha. forgot who shared already. think its me kayee gavin primero*. erm ya.
im done with blogging. tml's sunday. i wanna go out. feel like having a "sharon's day out" but sigh i tell myself "i must do work" or "go swimming" or "go running". today i was in taka with my family. i felt so like telling them to go to coriander n leave me there to xplore orchard (havent had enuff wif tszshan d other week) but i din. so i got rather irritated for d rest of d day. anyway i saw really nice n cute bears at thomson plaza. but somehow i think id rather buy them for ppl than to have someone buy me one.
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