memories-
Friday, May 20, 2005
fireworks although nice, only last for a short while.
when will the feeling that i get today ever come back?
when u are feeling like shit. den suddenly everything you see everyone u talk to becomes wonderful. when i become high..thats when im really happy. i dun think anybody new that i know has seen me in that state before. the place that im currently stuck in is quite emotionless and filled with nothingness. maybe its the people. maybe its the feeling. where everything becomes vaguely familiar. even those whom ive never seen or talked to for 5months?
the counscillors at work reminds me of my psl days.
today was the bball nationals girls and boys team.
girls was hc vs vjc. we won.
guys was hc vs tjc. we lost.
but tj was damn zai. their cheers were wonderful too. i saw alot of people. naturally cus tj and vj are where most of the dunman population are?
anyway, i cheered :)
i went for vjco concert. but before that went to eat. damn high all the way la for no particular reason. the cue just comes naturally. thruout the concert was feeling kinda happy. but i felt happier during the interval and after the concert. i paid eight bucks for happiness that i can hardly find these days. so it was worth it after all.
chrystal. chinyong. junda. primero. angela. clara. leedya. jingying. shuhui. weiwei. jieren. yexiang. yelin. tszshan. grace. khaiqi. peifen. siying. siwei. kayee. zhuge. siyuan. wenwen. doris. carmen. xiuyi. wesley. eugene. steph. jieying. jiamin. mollie. yuanting. jiayin.... everyone that made my day rocks.
so now i get it. its the feeling that i get when we are together. when i graduate, i learn to treasure certain things more. i learn that maybe certain people or certain things aren't really that bad.
hmm. i really dont wanna lose touch with my erhu. i haven been touching it for goddarn long. since..tuesday? sigh. maybe i will touch it later. im still undecided abt gg rosyth tml. but the fact is i cant go for subsequent practices, there's no point in me going tomorrow right? i want to do everything but somehow nothing seems feasible or manageable to me. -bawls- i wan to go for lessons.
fullstop. im utterly broke. there's still rjco concert, tml's food, minyi's present....
i wonder what tml will be like. more of hc ppl are going tml if im not wrong. anyway i hope my eight bucks spent tomorrow night will be worth it too.
thats all. im gonna end.
23:42
-keeps me alive
