memories-
Sunday, May 08, 2005
hah i think i had a nice time typing the previous entry.
acutally ive got much more thankyous to say. but i decided to appear more civilised. nehneh =p
anyway. assuming that i haven read the comments in tagboard:
yup. life's been going on even after syf. din go for the nomination thing on wed but went for training instead. it sucked la. mac ritchie sucks. t2 sucks.
thursday. quite a happy day. after a long day of school, wanted to go watch soccer match btw hc and vj @ vj but it was postphoned due to poor weather conditions. instead, went out with amanda and yaoxu. wah. went to far east plaza (my 2nd time there only) and went heerens. actually had quite abit of fun there. den yaoxu quite smart. i think she still have much more to say about me. she quite observant about people.
friday. i felt quite paiseh of myself for speaking more about myself to yaoxu and amanda on thursday evening. im not supposed to talk. sighs. den like abit try to not be so close to them today. its really subconscious la. maybe i dun like ppl to know me too well. tt why i dun like sticking around with the same few ppl always. went gym after school. the gym instructor is an idiotic busybody.
saturday. after so long, one saturday without co. i wanted to go for rosyth alumni co. but they cancelled it. ended up in rosyth's canteen with junkai. argh. something happened. but i felt really BAD (as in not good) some things cant really be told to anyone la. but ya la i shouldnt be so nice to pple next time i really think i must fiercen up. d whole afternoon wasn exactly nice.
esp after wad junkai said abt preparing something;
esp after receiving tszshans sms abt jiantao date ;
esp after being hurried in giving my confirmation
went for training in the afternoon. sighs. d sun was pretty hot and everything. i found out that there one extra person in the team. and like since i woudn mind staying on in hcco (i'll give it 2nd thots after today), maybe i should quit canoe. wah so fun n ridiculous huh. its just a passing thought la. maybe it would be feasible but i think it wouldn now.
anyway i thought of why i joined both CCAs. and i thot the one i joined canoe for was a stupid reason. i just wanted to challenge myself. it was nowhere near to passion. it was afterall a new sport tt ive nv tried. duno. but im in quite a big dilema. and im in a bad mood till today.
esp aft given d pressure of hurrying my parents to make d decision.
i seriously tried to do physics. however, with the stupid added worries and the tv blasting, and also my stupid brain. i haven really gotten anything done. i end up staring at the computer wondering how to phrase my sentences in such a way that what i'm bringing across is more subtle.
i want to take part in everything yet everything i wanna take part in clashes. if only both my cca timings dun clash. if only rosyth alumni co prac doesn clash with trainings. if only dhsco jian tao doesn clash with whatever i have. if only.
anyway shucks im not superwoman. the comments has affected my way of blogging la. i cant help feeling that whatever im blogging, be it the truth or not all sounds damn fake. shit la ask them to eff out of my life la. screw euu. somehow. some hc ppl shudn be reading anything off my blog la. i know how to mind my business i dun need anyone to mind it for me. conclusion: they should mind their own business. hello. hcco got its "deserved" and "die die must get" gwh. not happy ah? oh right if i wasnt playing then hcco would have gotten gold with honours honours? cantankerous ppl with nothing better to do. after getting gwh still not shuang. ah nvm i shall be gracious.
15:48
-keeps me alive
