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Wednesday, June 08, 2005

gee. been busy with the aiyue co these few days..

monday_* co was totally hunning.. gosh

tuesday_* went for co early in the morning. interacted with a few zhonghua people..the xianyue ones la. hah and i think one of them super funny la. sec1 ger called ginger! anyways.. fooled around..quite little practice la. today again, made me realise the proness of certain people. sheesh. pri6 guy.sec1 guy.. all nubbad de siah. and rachel started learning like same time as me..now learning grade 9! bang! den junru..learn one yr aft me if im nt wrong la. but they are like so good now. sheesh. i am very shi bai. shit but pls let me discover my gd points soon.

sigh dun talk abt unhappy things.. went out for lunch with them, then theres dis irritating parent who kept rushing us. argh. den whoa got one of the sec3 call me the jc girl. damn im not that old right.. i think i go with them can become pri skl kid oso la. uh-huh.. den left co halfway.. wenta yc meet up with giri, ramana and rubin.. talk abt sri lanka and oh yes mr lam talk to us for very long. and we watched the aceh video too. gee i miss laos. we were still like gossiping and talking abt certain things that happened in laos la.. fond memories. if ramana din stop him i think he'd continued on till past 9!

oh yes. two ppl have msged me to go for hcco pracs. not that i can help it la. but im busy.. and also for some reasons every time i tell myself to attend the next upcoming prac i feel like im not doing myself alot of good la. come on la.. its like sending myself to the lion's lair.

wednesday_* i felt damn bad. i was like arnd a few sec late for training and some more it was raining so i decided not to turn up. but i felt even worse when the rain started to become less heavy. i went to the gym instead, thinking that it'd make me feel less sinful but it din really help. i ended up spending one hr plus in the gym and the next 40plus minutes sleeping and reading my pathetic bio notes. wonder why im reading.. probably trying to make myself feel less sinful after i screw my block tests upside down. ate lunch with my mum! haha wonder why im so happy abt that right? currently im trying very hard to keep every cent to myself. seriously la, i wanna go for the next yc trip i think shud be srilanka la if not is maldives and the cost will be thousand plus again. and obviously i dun think my parents will let me go la. i was thinking if money could appear suddenly it'd be no prob to go. and then i was thinking of saving up. but HAHA there are 4 months left. which means 16 weeks. i get 20 per week. lets analyse. if i get allowance every week of they year which is not the case..i get ZERO during hollidays like this, i'll only get 1040 in a year..absurd i cant even pay for the trip myself if i dun eat for the whole year, let alone 4 more months. so i'm already 99.8% sure i cant go for the trip. nevertheless, i should give a shot at trying to save as much as possible. both mr lam and liyu told me to seriously ask for an allowance-rise. but how? although i secretly hope for all my parents' friends to come comment on how little they give me..or brag about how much they give their kids.. then my parents wil realise. sheesh i cant talk to them. scared la. jiamin can say im ham4 again. haha that is why i've been faithfully passing all the information sheet about talks being conducted..esp parenting talks..hoping that the lecturer or the person giving the speech will answer my prayers and include in his/her talks how much a jc student should receive as pocket money. hah. effort come to nought. i guess this kinda thing is quite subjective la. but when everyone around me receive almst double of what i receive?? oh whatever.. this reminds me..in the aiyue co.. there's a ger, whose dad is the breadtalk person! gosh and junru's father is super rich too. we are getting free breadtalk breads from today onwards till sat! woohoo. if only im in a rich and genourous family. junru's father like bought so many things for so many people he sponsored rosyth's pu jias la for god sake. and there's this person called arshvin in the yclaos trip.he also super rich la..father know so many big shots! uncle is some ambassador before..ok la ramana and giri's parents should be quite rich too. eeks. i know one day some of the people were talking abt how much they have in their savings account. god. whats that man. i have ZERO savings. let alone an account. that account i have is like joint with my mum?!?! ah whatever la im too irritated and at loss for words to continue about my day.

just in case my dad or mum happens to link here ;p i need a pay rise !! desperately. and pls let me go to sri lanka.

mr lam said shud be ok..since he abit try to psycho my parents at the airport that day.. den plus the watching of laos video shud be okay. i sincerely hope so man. the max i can raise for myself is like 400? which is less than 40%!!!

oh woohoo. i just learnt that kimberly is sophia's cousin. and yingtong is like tanliyu's cousin. i nearly died when i knew that. the world is totally small.. (its a small world afterall! )ike how my dad knows sherilyn's dad. sigh.. it was like my wish for something llike this to happen. like one of my frens..preferable gd fren..den our parents suddenly met and discovered that they are gd frens too or something like that. i seriously need a more sane parent to brainwash my already sane parents. it so happens now that my parents are like advisors to others' parents lorh!

i better siam off the com. im gonna face the com for quite long tomorrow morning!

pls pls.. make me play well -magically- tomorrow. i totally have no time and brains left to prac. oh yes.. pls come up with a formula to squeeze everything ive read into my brains. i really think i will screw up the block tests totally upside down.

sheesh. have anyone who read my blog seen me so crazyily in love with my block tests or any test or exams before? not even for Os la. its the hwa chong spirit. i din mean spirit as in spirit but those supernatural thing. haha. i think hopelessly in love with blocktests. but the more worried i get the worser i'll fare. so far i haven been worried for any of my tests or exams(outside hwachong). so i fail also dun feel the pinch. heehee.

i really think i shud have gone to some jc not as stressful. this guy here online is talking to me abt pw. and ive totally ignored him. gosh let me live my holidays in peace. the best would be to shoo everything abt hc off. it just gives me the creeps. i dun even wan to log onto my other msn account.. i was freaked out when libo msged me on sunday night. i wun look forward to sch reopening. sadly i'll just have to be associated with hwachong once again.

anyway. i still think i have too many things at hand to deal with. its like every new thing i see.. i wanna take up or be involved but i dun let go of the old things. im really packed to the brim now. for now, all i can hope for is that no one other than the dhscoxyz04 batch dinner with wgy would disturb my next two weeks of the holiday. i need to study desperately. i dont want to be retained. and pls no one should say im smart or imply anything that has that meaning.

really la im freakingly frustrated. the moment i land in sgp, i've had no peace. my dad at home really becoming more and more naggy. my brother would be pestered to study and when im studying i hear them nag at him i also cannot concentrate..if not is they will off tvee la whatever. luckily my mum's working. argh but i want her to be home and not nag..thats the best. ive so totally made up my mind that home is the worst place you could study. i already have difficulty understanding the topic and every sentence i read i have to be interrupted. yet, because im desperately saving money, i should refrain from gonig out like to coffee bean or mos to study.. im so dead. place-to-study-less. if only the holidays could last longer. if only there was no flight back from laos. gonig to laos only made the not-so-good part of sgp stand out even more.

oh ive blogged for one hour non-stop..blabbering stuff that doesn even pause to let my brain process..i dun care. i need another tv prog to destress. gosh. i think life sucks. where's wei..where's liyu.. where's cassandra..where's sherilyn.. where's cyss zhihui?!?! the few nights we had togather were one of the best nights ive had so far...

in laos i had the motivation to even do workouts in the room! damned.. in spore nothing. absolutely nothing. in laos i had the motivation to stay up late to complete my reading..but here.. never. i don't feel guilty for not studying here. i've tried. but nothing goes in. eeach time some info tries to go in, i'd fall into a deep deep sleep right away. in laos 9 days my neck hasnt really gave me problems. here, just standing and listening to ppl talk kills my back.

whatever. dun kill me.. nothing in this entry has been thought through before its typed. byebye .rushing to my tvee prog!!

19:59

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