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Thursday, September 01, 2005

well. edited my blog template finally. -song le yi kou qi- intention was to occupy my mind for the day cus maths was driving me crazy frm 8-10.30 tis morning! anyway, let me continue from the previous entry.

so we had foto taking session on tuesday during break. and it was like so sucky la. come on lor. was really pissed at the ppl. at least ppl like yaoxu can make her presense known but the five of us were like just there while the other girls rushed for positions and everything lor. i had a good mind not to be in the foto. argh.

den very sian. jerry chai treated us right. before that me, liying, libo and haoran were left in school la. the rest made their way there without waiting for us. nice class. i think the going out abit superficial right since there's like no real class spirit. forgive me for saying that la. but that's what i really think lor. then aft everything, a few of us went back to school in chai's car.

yup went to reading room to do maths n physics. wasnt really in the mood. but many thanks to jieying for pei-ing me :) and congrats for getting ur mp3 player back. went back with huixiang at nite.

wed's teachers' day celeb. the day at hwachong wasn nice at all la. from in the morning, i realised none of the 4 other girls came (referring to amanda, panyue, yaoxu n liying). den i was looking around for the j2s.. like normally i got nothing to do at class bench will try to find jieying/jiamin/liyu at their class benches. but i realised that none of them were in school all cos of their study leave. shucks. really made me realise how impt they were for my few months in hc. suddenly i hope waikit can make it into hwachong. or else i may jus rot next year. giving the teachers their cookies were ok. numbed la. no feelings at all. and only two ppl attended the concert- me and yanling. surprise surprise! i went.

den it was the big dunman gathering at the canteen all going back to dhs. then i felt better cus amand was there..after her guitar performance. den kap her hairband to take foto :

its me! with amanda's ugly big sunflower hairband! hahaha.

lols. so spastic! anyway cabbed down to dunman and on the cab me n yvonne were like complaining abt hwachong..how far and how late the celebrations end. and YAY we finally got to dunman high. suddenly felt so relieved and everything. i really lurve dunman high. well. i think i love it more then when i was there. guess you'd only treasure certain things after you've lost them.

the teachers were all so busy. i preferred seeing them on normal days.. haha mrs har n wu lao shi n christine tan all sae they got see me arnd in dunman high compared to the rest. ha. anyway received my psl cert like finally and u know wad, helped mrs ho find some ppl to give their certs. made me feel like one of the dunmanians again..looking for ppl n running errands for teachers. sighh. i miss dunman high.

saw ppl like peini serene and lotsa ppl i missed! how i wish i was back in sec sch.
class gers met at changi airport for lunch at swensens. den i called mabel to ask the tj ppl to come too. poor tjc-ians got lessons la! anyway whole bunch of them so excited. mabel, xiaoting, wanting n zhaoxiu zoomed here and i joined them at popeye's. here's one pic..

us at popeye's at changi!

good to see them again. miss the hostel life. and i really miss doing maths with them. wonder if one day we'll still get the chance to do work together not. sigh. zx n wt had to rush back to school. so the three of us left went back to swensens to join the rest.. talked n crapped and talk about how all of us not say very close in sec school, come out still can chit chat n talk like anything. and found out that we all dun like jc. still dunmanians better la. all of us in jc still more or less clique with dunmanians and everything.. not like i wanna praise us or anything but there's dunmanian identity one. next time go observe other schools people la.

qian ru, xt and me @ changi swensens =D

had a really nice time @ swensens. and then some ppl too cold decided to leave there. i really felt myself la. not the feeling hwachong gives me at least. perhaps graduating did me good. made me realise everything. and treasure everything. manage to resist temptation of swensen's not so delicious ice-cream...but being deprived of food turns me mad! hah

licking the ice-cream ! haha its the advertisement. i went into the siao siao mood and decided to do it..

whee- me and mab!

when have you seen me behaving like this in fotos ?? no one dared to lick the ice-cream so i did. haha creative leh. talking abt behaving like this, last time i dun like to take fotos de.. haha too ugly le..but then i realised the nice-ness of taking fotos and the memories that you will capture..so nowadays there are so many fotos being taken!this foto was taken on the train..at changi there lesser ppl so can fool around!

shoes unite..

ha. xiaoting instigated us to alight at simei. mabel, qianru decided to go their own ways and not join us. so first, we walked around..shopped around bah. den quite fun leh. i realised that all of them become mug le! cham cham cham. im still lao yang zi- slackest! den stopped by at the food court to eat dessert. at cheng teng w xt..the rest watched den joce also bought dessert. tsktsk managed to resist eating red bean pancake despite whining for it several times. still the same, i receive the least pocket money amongst us. and we talked. i mean they talked. i kept quiet most of the time there.about those other school girls they see in jcs..those talk bad abt ppl and those kind la..you-know-wad kind. after that bought old changkee den carry on walking. went to this pet safari thing. its so cool la! and the doggies quite cute lorh!

some of us at simei :)

seven something we all left for home. tired ;) but happy and satisfied. we've decided to join in mid-autumn celeb and the alumni dinner on 16th n 17th september.

i guess nothing bad in dhs can be labelled bad after going into jc. everything went back to normal i guess. i think i felt quite happy during the later half of the day. but i guess today also made me reliase some of my bad points last time. but i got change lar okay. my hopes are that everybody can be happy family! hurhur. something like that la. -cant phrase wad i wanna sae. and i am determined to keep some stuff out of my blog- i swear after today im gonna e a nice good gurl. i think life has made me wanna improve. all the things that happened before will shape my character.

was a good day! thank you all :)
but i zonked out upon reaching home. slept before shao nian bao qing tian! aww.

today was slacky day BUT i woke early..at 8am to do maths. damned irritated. so many questions i dunno how to do. i miss jieying if only i have her beside me, like in the reading room , then can ask her for help le. sigh. so sad. tml test le. but lucky my previous test still A, they will take the best of the two wad..so still ok bah. by eleven i was sian diaoed. decided to come online den started doing template after lunch. like finally. but actually i dun really feel much better la. i still a bit not good mood.

i really think hc is nonsense. smart ppl surrounding me :( boohoo. u know its like once u dun undserstand is totally zero understanding le. i miss mrs har physics teacher. in fact i miss classroom lessons la. but still im lucky there's nice ppl in hc still.. at least they are not non-existent.

did until superstar started. but the show i super sian. somemore the other contestants appear so little times i decide to watch the chan8 serial. the results jus came out. weilian's the one. but expected la. kelly also quite pleasant la.

now still debating whether i should go school jus before maths test or go to school. im so tired of school. but something tells me i should just go for lessons in the morning. sigh and be unhappy.

oh yes. i received liyu's sms ask whether i ok not. den duno wad 2 reply. also dun wannna read again, else i wil miss them even more. den kept busy for the whole day somemore. den nine plus she msg again. whew. so sorry. so so so sorry x one mole to keep you worrying. well. jiamin too. thanks for ur concern? :) im just sick of everything in life now. give me back my old friends and my old days. sigh. but life still has to go on. i'll try to keep myself from looking around the class benches for the j2s. i'll try to focus on studying for promos. i'll try to do everything to remain as sharon as possible. i guess. but everyday at home or in school, still hafta pretend im nice and happy. very sian.

us!

and us!

and them!

well. what to do. life has to go on. good luck to them for their prelims and As bah. sigh. while i try studying for my upcoming promos.

dunman high is the school. but we all agree it getting quite bad. the scool. like the way it operates. somehow i think kiw with more power is good to a certain extent too. and i miss kiw. din see him yesterday! aww. his mole with seven strands of hair or has more sprouted?

sian. seniors and juniors all busy. anyway i guess from tuesday, the two day break has let me rest awhile. like ppl have retail therapy, i have food therapy and holiday therapy and ppl-i-like therapy =D school as per normal tomorrow. cannot keep ponning le. ppl arnd me notice that i start to keep ponning alot recently too. duno wad happen la.

okay i wanteed to end le. but my mum just came in. and smthg happend.

see. i was right. din i just say i have to act happy in front of everybody else? my ---- mum jus scolded me for crying la. i was trying to make her go away but she stayed on. come on la. i really no freedom of expressing myself den she wan to force me tell her got anything wrong annot. so bu xiang hua la seriously. den when i want peace she has to come bug me. when i want her she busy doing her work. when i want her to sh*tup and let me concentrate on my work she rants on and on. the other day my dad also. feel so restricted and so mo ming qi miao. i duno. at times like this i really hate being at home. i wish i was somewhere else like in the reading room with jieying.

know why i like my seniors alot. sparked off by zirui in sec1, it was really the first time when i felt that someone is so true to me. like not fake. i say so many times le. my primary school people were nonsense too. after wednesday..i realised that there are more of such ppl arnd me too..u know, theres no way of my parents knowing how and wad i feel la. although i tell them abit more this yr le. they should observe wad. yeah they gave up asking stuff like "how's school" or how is this test or that test or anything cus i always without fail give them the same ans :"okay lor". sian diao again. life really sucks. when school starts to suck a little, i find home starting to suck too. nowhere i can be really happy at huh. i guess im better off sleeping. no wonder i sleep so much these days.

oh ya i wanna complain my dad too. whole day irritate me. den in the end tell him dun irritate me he get angry and scold me. come on la. he started it first okay. and somemore parents must wait till they free then try to interact with children. they think that whenever they are free we are always free issit.

but ha mus praise my brother. recently quite nice la. he's entertaining me with his MSN conversations and things he do on the computer.

i really wanna find someone just like me around.

uh-huh forgot to post the link for the pictures taken with the 4I gurls! webshots wasnt exactly working today..so i posted on shutterfly :

http://iamsharonang.shutterfly.com

cyah guys ;) tag n hope u like the new design. i will change again soon. its a good way to forget ur worries temporarily. and i guess i wun be on MSN so often already today whole day online also never sign in. i need some quiet around.

oh ya. even though she may not read it, shirin from yclaos trip's going to UK or US or something to study. bon voyage!

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