memories-
Friday, October 21, 2005
u know that kind of look ppl give u whn u've done something wrong? its like slanting the mouth to one side kind. yeah thats my face now (".)
k la. finally written report handed in. off with one troublemaker for now. but still got OP la.
open house was really very sian. even though i had two different places to run every hour or something. CCA exhibition will surely be much better. dun wanna update abt OH la. really boring. nothing much lor, jus that spent time with KAYA-king :) and performed with hcco. which is urm quite lan la. our 10am perf audience was pathetic, but somehow whn i was in the car jus now, decided that my team mates were nice ppl and come support me awhile -nodsnods- shrugs. i duno wad to feel la. cus like... aiyah explain here oso quite fei. no one will really undst. maybe sae later. anyway think its quite fei for CCA ehibits during open house. -gives that face once more- no one believes im in canoe. which is good la i think? heeheee. no big arms or dark skin!
duno. i think i had fun d whole day with the kings! hoho. everyone is fun and nice!
saw some dunmanians la. jus too lazee to go into details.
had training. i went back to T1. felt so stable. and less taxing on the brain cus no need to rudder! blah- haoxia quite merciful la. quite slack training. n lala was funy+nice to hepl with the stupid T1 carryin! but 50 pushups killed me. aiyah hate to admit it la. but hearing everyone's voice arnd me was damn touching la. like. say everyone will always be there de. sheesh.
i pity myself la. went to meet some co ppl (zixuan, ningfei, libo, liangcheng, minyi. oh anw. i think zixuan's damn cute n funni!) at some bukit timah place. out of the way somemore. they eat i watch. all because i said i could make it like few days ago, before i knew got training. -sighs- duno. sunday got outing. like aiyah really even if i dun feel like going also must go. duno wad am i doing la. toying with myself. like gotta put in triple the effort with my double CCAs. i seriously duno wad i am doing too. -shrugs- u wun understand. i dun even know what am i doing la. so confused.
-puts head on both hands- what am i gonna do. must think in the shoes of the ppl in my CCAs la. wo bu zhi dao zen me ban. jiu ming ah. dou guai zi ji bu hao. but aiyah even if now i oso want to remain in both. jus cant help self-pitying sometimes only. if hcanoe had a sticker, i'd put the hcco one on one sleeve and hcanoe one on the other.but hcanoe dun haf u see? but then, if i think in the place of others, i shud put none. in theory, none shud be mentioned in the presence of the other.
took bus home with minyi lor. heh. i duno.
quite pissed with my parents la. although they mean well. keep nagging at me to put sunblock. and my dad actually said that the next time come home darker or redder he will make me quite hcanoe. like oh WDH. both of them seriously not in favour of my that CCA la. but i really die die cant quit. bleah. must consider all the factors. dun list here la. paiseh ma =X
urm ya basically thats it. i think both sides, i also know more ppl, and dun like co less le lar. u know like cant help it today called cheegake in the inner plaza today. lol den aft calling i realised. "oops i like never called her name b4 hor". aiyah. to summarise, i think i begin to like all ppl arnd me more le. not say like la, jus find that they are acty nice ppl and not so unlikable de. my classmates too! like shuhan, stpeh, yining, tracie.. i find myself so amazing. really. o_o
stress management. oh PLS gimme a break man. i think i seriously need one week to recuperate. i should have a retreat. to batam or something to R & R and jus forget abt everything arnd me. dying soon la. or jus stay at home for home therapy. duno. back to my weird ways of not wanting to interact with ppl for awhile.
tml training+tuition. sunday hcco outing. rahhh !
22:21
-keeps me alive
