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Saturday, October 15, 2005
wad i typed all gone. fuck. why my com decided to sleep for no fking reason. den i duno how to wake it up. wake up le is restart. how. i am so damn pissed. gimme the secret hp no im going to msg and scold the receipient. whatthehell. @!#@$*#%%&!*#$!@$@#!!)
wad i wanted to say was. thursday not good mood ah. something sparked me to read my past entries. written in sec3 de. somehow like the writing style. like log book liddat listing wad i do+some comments. my sec3 life like so much better then compared to now. maybe cus is grow older le den brain become more complex. sec3 life better.. maybe cus got other factors..like..hee -winks- (ps i din mean to wink when im in such a bad mood here. i was jus recalling wad i typed in my previous one that disappeared!)
dunwanna read abt sec4 man. i think blogged abt lotsa stuff that pisses me off and also will get me pissed with myself when i recall the incidents la. sigh. but i think my sec3 entries are too mild. maybe my temper too mild too. sigh initially wanted to look for entries that will appropriately tell my fren about something, but cant find! cus all too mild le, nv express anything. sheesh. regret lots. -shakes head-
argh my entire purpose n tone change la. stupid com. want sleep later den sleep la. mus sleep now.
friday. did i tell you? mdm madihah found out our class 21 ppl nv go for pw lecture, den make then write two page essay on "why should i attend pw lecture" to be handed in on friday immediately after flag raising. but they din. they went KAP. went downto do proj with my grp members too. madihah fuming la, called jerry chai to complain. he drove down to meet us. ha. i bet he damn surpsied im not one of the 21. oei ppl like me smart. pon correct stuff lor.
afternoon went meet waikit , yimin n her fren go tj open house la. wdh go like 2hrs early! make us look like over-enthu kias. met quit alot of ppl. got weiqi! n kayan!! saw meiting ah. ex-tuition classmate not bad still remember me-nods in approval-
evening went meet rubin go youth challenge,YC to submit his passport siah.submit only quite fast.go there mr lam talk so long. GOSH. frm 6plus till 9.30pm! he wan me org trip aft As la. and gossip abt shirin n hale la. and talk abt other trips too. yawns reach hm plonk on bed ZzzZZz le la. mus conserve energy for training the next day!
today.gosh nearly overslept! phew. nv late. training got new teammate! heehhee awyong~ yayee. paddled k2 with yingxia. so scaree. keep praying that wun cap la. i meant pray. ya. hah yingxia saved our lives many times man! fast reflexes sia. den gotta do 100 pushups la. wdh. but at least now better, got more ppl tong gan gong ku do guy close grip with me :) but im not improving. arghs.
aft training ah. stupid me thot macritchie got bathing place! dun haf! so went awyong's house with christine bathe. den rush down meet cass and rubin. gosh i was so late. sorree cass man. went YC again, meet mr lam. we tie the flag on the flag poles for him den break one UN ball ball lor. hha. gosh. den ya spent so long trying to find where to go. central asia air tix is like -erhem- 3000 plus?!?!?!?! wanna go turkey, yet the timing not right. argh. so maybe maldives. going to do our research n meeting on tue again! cass rocks!
evening ah tuition lor. see la events one after another totally no breathing space. tuition sian. nt paying attention la. too tired. i confirm that guy is my ex-pri skl classmate la. kenneth.p6 de.
night went eat with family!
tml. morning my own R & R i dun care. afternnon got PW discussion. evening got dinner with chinyong they all n some sec3s. night mus do kayee's maths questions. yawns. anothr busy day. everyday im tied up with some stuff. holiday soon la. if i dun haf ONE free day i'll die.
liyu's friend weilin say b4 im d type of person who'll take on as many things as possible. budden will eventually try to fin them up la. duno leh. count count couunt really ALOT of stuff to do. CCA(S), PW, school(sucks), Os (ya kayee n waikit will make u feel like u r sitting o levels too), yc. one day during some fei lectures or something will draw up a calendar. will die looking at all packed! actually not all packed u know. the worse thing is all CLASH. ya CLASH. ddamn stupid. all consecutive days never mind man. CLASH somemore. arghs.
O. someone sae i got split personality la. i know le. i am doing a few persons' worth of work. ha. i got a few persons brain to think nonsense. but studies ah. no no.
liyu calls that gossipping behind her back. but me n cass thinks she some super woman. think abt it. she handling so many stuff la.
in few minutes' time is gona be jelena's bdae! happy bdae :)
right now.i think its stupid to go on and on about missing whoever and whoever.. and saying that on ur blog. ha. i tell u i puberty havent over man. keep having mood swings n my thinking keep changing. argh. keep deluding myself n forcing myself into a certain feeling or thinking that maybe drifted off temporarily.
yawns i am very tired. wasted the whole night on MSN. bro keep asking me play maple story.but i have PW to complete, some research for the trip stuff. arghs. i still have brains of a kid, mindset of a kid and look like a kid! got. how can i handle JC person's workload.
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-keeps me alive
