memories-
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
bleagh. mood swing. for no reason.
disclaimer. i am in a ???? mood. i duno wad im doing k. jus a spur of the moment thing. dun read if u dunwan.
i think i am so crap. everytime i know new ppl i'll feel very nonsensical at night.
im sick of everything. pls dun wish me anything. pls dun gimme present. pls dun sing for me. its two days later. it feels nothing. i have to meet the st*p*d country representative. i have to go for tuition. so what if harry potter is celebrating with me?
where is my inner self. these few days i cant find my soul. i feel empty. superficial. whatever happens goes skin deep. im afraid i wun b able to appreciate ur wishes. ur presents. or even ur song.
what am i going to maldives for. why am i making frens for. why am i wish everyone luck for their exams whn i myself duno whether i mean it annot? why do i treat the pri skl ppl so nicely for when i myself duno if im really nice. why am i helping gavin with the dhs thing for if i duno if i really wholeheartedly wanna help? why do i fu yan so many things. or deep deep inside, i really wana do everything that i do? rwah!
why do i go for trainings if i duno why am i doing it for. why do i try to do everything even if i duno whether i like it. why do i do everything that im doing?
conclusion i duno wad am i doing. i duno if i like what im doing. i duno if what im doing even means anything to me. oh great. i lead a screwed life. with no purpose. no aim. no goals.
-thats my superficial self talking. aka my skin.
my bones aka myself haven been out for very long. i miss them ALOT. pls come out soon.
dis was meant to b a private entry. but forget it. blog means blog. means let ppl see one. who cares den.
i think im jus numbed by everything. nothing excites me now.
23:50
-keeps me alive
