memories-
Monday, November 14, 2005
wdh. im tired. shud start playing maple soon to rest n brain.
yesterday was a terrible horrible day. i woke up nice n fresh, watched tvee..den after my children shows went online. den thruout the whole morning ah. getting calls n sms from the poiching kids. WAH. cus said i wun b gg dongqu le rite. den ya. kids (julia, shermin, shiyee, jayne..)
anyway i told them i'd ask again. n gavin told me to go down. n i stupidly did. cus they said julia prepared something for me.
i reach there. horrible. siyuan said got ppl cry n dunwan to eat cus i not there (it was julia n shermin). shrugs. terrible.
my whole day was spent backstage and time passed damn slowly. the noise was terrible. i had to play with them to quieten them. some macoroni game n piggy back them..rwah. got one parent in the xianyue area keep looking at me. pity me bah. nvm. den they keep scolding chinyong. dats d worse part. but in the end managed to make me promise dun scold him le.
i seem to think i go there got more trouble only la. but on the flip side, i dun go also got trouble. aiyah. forget it. i am trouble.
finally. finally. the concert ended. i was like !!! wah chiong home.
yah. some kids were pretty cute while some were bitchy n noisy. i couldn stand them. argh. kong hwa n east spring esp. so ytd i became a bed, piggbacker..and everything la. i know la they like me. also no need liddat de ma. make my life easier better rite. only dis ger called julia did it:)
one ger. know me one day den start asking me to go out. !!!! diaos. n she kip msging me. im damn irritated.
reach home finally. cant find my dinner cus my bro burnt the whole pot of soup. in the end parents come home pick on his everything, scold la. damn irritating la. my dad so violent. damn unreasonable. i thought. and i was there busy trying to wipe the biro ink marks on my mum's white bag. its the 2nd time! argh im irritated. dun how she draw her bag until liddat man.
it near midnite after the inks finally decided to leave the bag.
i woke early today to go for training at clementi gym. one week since i trained i suppose..argh. was calculating ytd..gona miss like quite alot of trainings hor? breifing for police camp's dis wed.. 5-7 dec oso got cover mon n wed. omg. haoxia will kill me soon.
joined huiwen n leilei, the scaree group. but ok la. not so scaree after we started doing our programme.. improved like alot for the weights part. silly yingxia overslept today! n didn join us.
went home wash up, play erhu n den sleep. woke up drank soup den go bishan buy shihlin chicken. den go tuition lor.
physics of fluids. forgot 75% already. tml still haf. aie. sian.
aft tuition went toapayoh lib. look for maldives book ah. read until damn sian. but found out some stuff la. argh the stupid place is like full of islands n atolls im getting confused. n they kind refuse to tell me where their camps/schools are huh. argh. nvm i think can find cheaper accomodation frm the book. n the travelling within the country is like darn ex. whee-oh great. sharonang u r so dead.
watch tvee. play table soccer with my bro. and dad had to come home n spoil the peace n serenity of the house. again la. irritate me by talking to my bro n getting all violent. i dun undst why they ask him to plan timetable. why they ask him to revise so often. its impossible. timetables never ever work ok. i nv did one. everything i see nothing wrong they see something wrong. dis kind is need enlightenment one. everytime i really cannot stand my father being so unreasonable lor. i duno wad to do. sometimes i really feel like telling him that his idea is wrong. but he flaring up le i tell den get myself in hot soup. rather not man. he keep saying wad he punch my brother n wadever. hello he is like your son? the whole KL trip he treat my bro as enemy liddat. my bro dun even dare to walk with him. issit ppl older le will get more violent n unreasonable? AND RMB i said he din even sing bdae song for my bro? only know how to say us la. dun u haf attitude problem too? go reflect la. ur won son also dun wanna sing for him. ur son give u bdae pressent duno how to say thank you but scold him instead. terrible. i am so disappointed. how would kelvin feel? he not three yr old kid la. yes he must study. he got the wrong method of studying. but at least give him chance rite. dun nonsense anyhow scold when he nt even given the chance to try again. i think he got low self esteem all that he's trying to do in sch n at home is jus trying to make himself feel better. n u as his parents/father nv even encourage him. argh. disgusted.
but actually superteen doesn really work. only 1% improvement i see.
i dunno i feel so irritated now. with my parents. they r making my whole blog entry sound nonsense.
anyway. today whole day also the poiching gers call /sms me. call can la. but pls pls pls my sms dying already. really. everyone stop msging me. start calling instead!
argh. either i start researching for more info. or i play maple. hopefully the mosters will let me release some of my anger on them. cya.
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-keeps me alive
