memories-
Sunday, December 18, 2005
...ppl seem to like talking to me huh. wasting my fund raising time. yesterday no training, so went fund raising. went parkway with samantha. lol. not bad la the crowd. sold 17 pens there. den tired le. went orchard. ppl there as usual not very good i thot nearer to xmas they will donate more..but not true. but i met nice ppl still B-) total got many donations and pens sold. but many times i really got very sad dat i got rejected alot of times. its really not easy. i was timing how long i could last without donations or anyone stopping to hear me speak.but often, after like a few fruitless minutes spent, some kind soul will walk by and lift my spirits a little. time passes really slowly during fund raising.like when you feel like you've gotten rejected like zillions of times, only 3 minutes have passed.
probably after fund raising, i learn to cope with rejections better.
alas. my hard work paid off la. cus i raised the most i ever. but it isnt alot either. but i was kinda satisfied. i guess it brought a small amount of faith into mr lam too. cus friday night he was kinda hinting something that isnt really good to say here..not that it will affect me.
although been to kovan twice recently, but din go into the building. went after 10pm yesterday. saw quite some changes. and bought macs to eat too. at home ate some strudel, brownie..cus i missed dinner =X
slept late at 12.15am yesterday cus i was typing minutes. but i wasnt on the net, so quite efficient already la. havent slept so late since weeks ago. thot i'd wake early to go gym. but i was quite lazee la.
this morning din wake till my parents made alot of noise. argh. reached YC arnd 11+ and i realised i have no money in my wallet when i decided to buy I-weekly. only have 3.60. so im left with 1.60. met geraldine n renon going to buy kaya toast. so i got my butter-sugar as usual. went YC count money. den kana chased out by mr lam cus i cant fund raise for long.
PARCO wasnt really a nice place to fundraise from experience la. but i went there anyway. i was feeling really lethargic and tired too. seriously i got so sick of being rejected that i jus sat down at the bus stop and stoned for awhile, or jus stood around acting pitiful. fortunately again, some nice angels came to revive me. ppl who came to me b themselves.. dropping a mere two dollar note made a big difference! today. there was a man. talked to me whn my stopwatch was at 55minuts. and stopped whn my stopwatch read 1hr 40min. and donated only $1.50. wow. wasted my time. and he din look really sane (but he was) so i got quite a few stares from passerbys and ppl at the bus stop. he spat lotsa saliva around la. and he got bad breath. after he stopped, i was so relieved but i wasnt in much of a mood to fund raise anyway. left after 3hr 10min..and prayed dat my box will miraculously conjour out some blue notes again.
i was seriously dying when i trudged to Yc office. luckily there was no mr lam to nag at me dat i went back earlier.. and there was kaya toast to eat! one reason why i left early was cus i was tired and hungry. yet i had no money to buy myself lunch =( busied myself typing some stuff..den left for grandma's home. i felt so so relieved. last day of fundraising! OMG. im not gonna see those box again til maybe like few weeks later. dat box is not only heavy, but a horrible burden too.
im sorry to everyone who called/sms or waiting for me to come online or do stuff. or for not keeping in touch or anything. even though i dun fund raise from 9am-10pm.. whenever im free, i'll jus stone around..to rest. next few days there's more room to breathe...so i guess i try to settle more stuff then.. before i actually go to hatyai,thailand from 23rd til 29th. my schedule is packed end to end.
i kinda feel GREAT for forgoing the xian yue camp. its actually a huge weight off my mind XD YAY. rachel yang called me ytd to ask me go.and i learnt that minyi actually going. but ya la on second thoughts, they all so pro. know alot of solo songs. and duno the songs i know. really, dats the bad point of being in dhsco. anyway ya, i wil try to keep away as far as possible.
with the only 1.60 in my wallet. i bought icecream which costs 1.20. and den went grandma's house to eat. duno why so full also. cus felt like i ate little. my appetite comin back le. yay fundraising's over :) :)
im back home watching the charity show. some ppl shun charities cus of ttdurai. thats a horrible reaction. actually i thot ppl donate by cents. but after these ten days i found out that 2 dollar notes are the most denomination. so still quite good la.
alot of things to do after awhile of stoning and watching tv. for tml's meeting. and im considering going to YC office tml. but im seriously half-hearted about changing venue. i want to so that more can be achieved. but i scared i'll lose mr lam and my group ppl's support after that. how? and elaine's not back yet. well i guess i better set an eldercare date and activity soon too. hais, its hard to think alone. i think distribution ferst will do for a start.
still coping well.. hopefully in these 3 days i can complete half of my work. at least la. and do some in thailand, if possible but its impossible. bring work overseas always no use one. anyway i've mastered the art of doing brainless stuff like stoning la. much of my time is wasted there.
blah-nothing much to blog about now, cus hols i have not much of a life la. cya
pls dun remind me of dhscoxyz chalet. i think i will forget abt it soon. and go for my "retreat" happily. hahah erm its a retreat from everything in Singapore. when i return, its a different story.
monday, friday, saturday, next monday n wednesday i wil be missing training. sigh 3 water trainings. i like water when im not on T1.
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-keeps me alive
