memories-
Friday, December 16, 2005
hmm. fundraising kinda getting on my nerves. im sick n tired everyday. but i jus feel like going to the office to slack. i woke late yesterday. so collect the pens n box den go meet glenda n acasius for lunch at kovan kfc. den throw them there fundraise while i go meet those imps from poiching. actually quite irritating la. past few days they keep msging me. keep calling me. oei i busy one ok. den sms oso my fone spoil so diff to sms. argh
went their mini concert. not bad for pri skl le la. i thot dizi n yangqin was pretty good. lol. stay there look at their antics.like giving me grassflower..singing xmas songs.. WOW. dun laff at me. not my fault rite.
erm. glenda n acasius. fund raise not very good la. but better than nothing. went eat dinner with them too. heh. they r quite a funny lot.n i went to ka cheow yaoxu at isetan scotts. wahaha. fun!
i like going to YC to see the new friends that i've made there..but not to fundraise lor. i mean. although i got the aim, but no fire, no drive..its too unreachable for me.im nt like debbie who can seel 100 pens a day. i think mr lam keep givin us stress lor.
today we had water training. was like DREADING n dreading paddling. -shrugs- i dun wana meet the terrible T1 again. but haoxia became kinder, so i tried a k1. tilting. but luckily din cap. i needa perfect my strokes man. i think i do it better when im not on a T1..i cant do anything on a T1.
i duno why. theres a magnet pulling me to YC office even though i feel super duper tired n sian. i guess its my conscience. i went there, intending to slack. and i did for awhile. hinting to mr lam and everyone else that im VERY tired. but i wasnt really physically tired, but mentally tired. did some packing. eating. n chatting. plus slacking. there comes yanling n i kindly offered to pei her walk arnd, but ah lam told me go get my own box. sian. fund raising was horrible. hot sun, lousy crowd. and i met a lawyer who happily wasted 25min of my time. BUT, i had a small peek into the box and then i found something that resembles a blue note. and it really was. well. how can i b so gong and not know who the hell put in a nice blue note. angel sent frm heaven saw my effort. lol.
but in all. i raised like damn little. n den went back. hear him talk again. i duno. must b all outside influence la. im starting to think twice already? i really wana find out the drive that the other ppl have. i mean... oh well.
i love talking to goki. and the rest. i mean..i kinda respect her more. ok nvm that. found out that the funds i've raised goes to paying the folks' medical bills and stuff liddat too. oh so its for an even better cause! i'd love to raise as much as possible. but i jus dun haf the ability to talk to ppl. bleagh. n im seriously mentally tired.
i like YC for the friends ive made frm there.. =)
today's the last episode for rainbow connection. the ending kinda sucks. i thot she could go back to her old boyfriend. sigh. was so looking forward to them being together again. argh. i hope got part two. lol. i like watching tv. destresses. but i dun deny that chan8 serials are lousy la. like the storyline n acting for rainbow connection is like lousy.
anyway. chatting to chinyong. den reminded me of some problems. realised that next year im seriously not gona cope la. msged ningfei jus now tell him im not going xianyue camp already. 1. i dun really feel like getting to know more ppl. i said i was already mentally drained. and i dun wana keep having weird gatherings n keep having to sms or msn to keep in contact. such a hassle. im jus being a little antisocial. 2. i realised i really needed some time for myself. like i thot how busy i had been the past few weeks. i feel kinda sorry for myself. im really really worried abt my tests n sch work. even though im nt going for the camp. there's jixun, there's meeting. my work cant b done.
argh. dhs amazing race minutes. whn am i gona do it?
shiyee's mum called me. shiyee is the poiching girl from dongqu. her mum ask me to ask her study hard for PSLE. cool huh. im like the free-iest girl on earth. i'll jus try my best.
i think i gotta learn to reject some stuff la. sometimes. cus i think wadever that comes to me, i'll jus accept one, if i think its within my means. i've been putting alot of things on hold ever since fund raising started. and im like slacking in the office half the time.
hrms. i need my sleep. i blogged becos i was a little frustrated n troubled. -tsk. there are alotsa things queueing to be done.
i wonder how liyu's doing in beijing. i wonder how everyone's doing. i haven beeen in contact with anyone. bleagh. ANd i need money. oh yes. i feel bad. i ate shaker fries twice already. oh no. im beginning to get addicted to it again. stop me.
i hope school never reopens. anyway i think im too dumb to belong in hwachong. its a good school.
bye. yawns
22:46
-keeps me alive
