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Saturday, April 08, 2006

hmm. im here to catch up on what i've missed for the past... few weeks. i forgot most of what happened..except for bits and pieces of trainings during the hols.

oh ya. my prep for block tests was horrible! everyday of the hols, after training i would just sleep. rahs. guess i could only count on the last minute studying...

*there was one particular training i got bitten FIVE times by a bloody mosquito. we were doing slope runs...so that slope will give me bad memories forever*

and during one day while i was studying for blocks. chinyong messaged ask me play for dhsco gongyan alumni item. rah i was so so depressed for that night cus i really really really wanted to perform but gongyan's on the same day as NJKC! sigh. knowing me, i kinda agreed but giving no promises la.. like if i suddenly cannot go then too bad kinda thing. so i was gonna perform. but in my heart i was hoping for a miracle..

two days before maths paper. i was piahing maths. i couldn do badly for maths, i told myself. but the paper wasnt that easy. i had alot of question marks although i completed everything. i screwed up my own studying plans cus i thot physics was before chem and i happily planned to study physics on monday and tuesday. sigh. chem paper on wednesday was easier than i thought la.. but during the paper i had headache and my bones suddenly felt pain :(

in the bus on the way home.. bad headache. i was already planning to go home and use the heat pad to relieve the pain and then start studying physics at 2pm. (ps. yining claimed that i said i wanted to fall sick so i could skip physics and bio paper)

true enough i felt like DYING at home. using the heat pad and then trying to sleep. even at 2pm i couldn bring myself to study physics. really i was aching like ALL over. i din even eat lunch. which was pretty rare for me. mum got home at 3plus with lingyang water for me. i thot that i really bth. i cried! it was so painful that i thot maybe i should just get an MC for physics paper. the wait at the polyclinic was bad. i din expect a fever. it was 37.7 when the doc took the temperature. she did warn us of dengue fever. mum was saying study for biology instead of physics. but i kept thinking that i wanted to go for the physics paper since they already said it would be dificult. but true enough, the next morning i was too sick too tired to wake up. i was almost totally bed ridden the whole day. it was damn ach-y and feverish. 39.7! mum started to put ice towel for me. thursday evening. it was really hot. and horrible. went to sgh A & E department lor. lucki they got a "fever" section so i guess the wait isnt that long? but i did wait till i cried. i was feeling so terrible.they kept me for observation for 2hours after the injection on my butt. ouch. and they put me on drip. quite cool. its some sodium chloride thingy. and the nurse was quite pretty and nice :) hehheh. hmm, ever since i had that fever i couldn sleep well at night. mum always wake up in the middle to sponge me also. and i always feel terribly cold. brr. BUT everything aside, i wanted to get well for dhsco practice later in the evening on friday. friday morning i woke up, psych myself that im fine, but my temperature's 39.1. decided to drink water. eat panadol and then during lunch i ate two bowls of chng tng, hoping that the temperature would be brought down. and while watching the table tennis commonwealth games, i drank more water. sure enough, my temperature was brought down and i was allowed to go to dhs. prac tianshan and jiang jun ling. hehe. quite fun. i love dhsco. i hoped that the fever would go away cus i need to train for the NJKC and prac for gongyan.

sadly. my fever came back when i was in the car. seriously i think maybe practising gets my fever away. until i go back to the house again.. the fever escalated until my parents threatened to bring me to hospital. sponge sponge sponge.. i was praying that i dun hafta go get the irky injection again, although it works. the fever stubbornly stayed put at 39plus and refused to go down. i told them if never go down by 12.30am den go hospital. so i put ice lor. drink water lor. and fortunately it went down to 38plus, enough to convince them not to send me to hospital again. sigh. but anyway i had to go polyclinic for blood test on saturday morning..and saturday morning got dhsco rehearsal! i was so so pissed that i cannot go ok. i was even more pissed when i found myself packing toileteries in case i had to be hospitalised on saturday morning. i was sent to sgh A & E again. this time i was so scared of waiting that i asked my mum to ask for a bed for me. yah and the nurse happily wheeled me into someplace weird with alot of doctors. i had to be warded for observation. sigh. my heart suddenly went down. i wanted to go to dhs for rehearsal! i had to hide my disappointment. they put the NaCl drip again. lucki never give me that irky injection! i was wheeled to the same ward that my mum stayed the other time. ward 78. room 24. bed2.sigh. i wondered how long i had to stay. somemoe it was a saturday! no nice shows on TV. shit. i'm going to be so bored.

only told haoxia(coach) about my condition la. and then in the afternoon he called, after training and the first thing he said was "eh, what the hell". scare me to death. and then... when i was happily catching a nap during the show at 5plus, he appeared! what a nightmare. he was happily look down at me. and then WAH i suddenly woke up. and here comes my mum too! yay and she happily, tactlessly told haoxia about dhsco gongyan and about how i went to practice. wah i felt like asking my mum to keep quiet. argh. you see, since that day chinyong messaged me i've been wondering how to get round this whole issue. cus on saturday, i was still holding on to the hope that i can get dischrged within two days. according to the doctor. they took my blood again. so irritating. the female doctor irene something totally poured some weird brown thing on my hand FIVE times before poking the needle in. argh. my appetite went down tremendously.

sigh. sunday. day two in hospital. i couldn sleep well throughout the night. they keep coming to take tempertaure and feeding me panadol. rah. and they happily woke me up at 6plus i think to take my blood again?!??! i rememeber that time weiqi said they will take it daily. shrugs. im gona lose so much blood man. and they had to take urine and stools sample. cool. anyway yah, every meal they gave me was wasted la. and my platelet count dropped to 79. so. its a confirmed dengue case. i was so sad okay. they told me have to stay on until maybe wenesday and they confined me to bed! i was SO super angry. have to use bedpan to go toilet ok. wth. i din care la. so i just went to toilet normally. changed room. to room 20 bed2.i had visitors today! hcanoe teammates.. some of them came :) haha huiwen brought a piece of paper that was quite nice. and they bought fruits. hmm. sadly i had not much of an appetite. but i managed some grapes though. yuwei found out from my blog. and he messaged :) so did wangui:) haha.

monday.day3 as usual they woke me up so early to take my blood again. rah. and the test showed that my platelet count dropped to 40! which is damn low and they die die have to keep me in bed. i was really really really pissed. but they told me got one guy really fainted, fell and bled, so i decided to listen to them and stay in bed. so its confirmed that i will miss biology SPA. mum called miss lim to tell her tt i wun be going to school. so and the class knew about my condition. and then. duh. since two grps in hc know le, it will spread.. so become quite alot of ppl know.actually i wanted to keep it a small thing so i never told anyone. but they say wenqi's sad that i never tell her! sorrie lor..but i din want ppl to know. i thot i was gona get well really soon. i placed so high hopes on my immune system. too bad it din live up to my trust. sigh. liying, amanda and panyue came after SPA. they bought a tigger for me. lol. so that tigger would keep me company :)i was too tired to entertain them. thankfully got my mum there to talk to liying! haha. actually it quite tiring for me to know that ppl will be visiting, because i must stay awake. stupid haoxia la. went to tell the team about how i was sleeping. he should know that he caused me so much trouble! rah. now i must keep vigil in case anyone comes. gugu1 came too! she bought food for me also. sigh..food..when i have no appetite sucks. some of the classmates came.. shuhan yeesheng weiye philip and tracie i think.they bought fruits too! thats alot of fruits. lunch was wasted. mum told dad to buy imperial treasures for me.. but that din really perk my appetite alot. after that, some of the team came after gym! haha updated me about trainings and stuff and once again, i complained about how hoaxia tiptoed into the room! funny huiwen force-fed me food for dinner. haha i was so entertained by her playing with the food that i decided to eat. lol. good try. that was the most i ate the the past few days. anyway. i din think i'd stay long enough to spend weekdays at the hospital but there was nice shows at night.. on chan8. and campus superstar. i like teresa! and clara. haha

tuesday.day4 there was still fever. sigh. so cannot be discharged. blood tests as usual. platelet count 99.watched morning cartoon from 9am. and sonic at 11am. i think the cartoons cheered me up considerably though. from 11.30 to 2.30 there was nothing to do but sleep cause there wasnt any nice shows to watch. lunch was skippable. mum would come around 11plus to keep me company :) aunt elizabeth came today. she's a family friend la. and she brought a bouquet and a bear! hee its so cute. so the bear accompanied tigger to accompany ME! dinner was skippable too. everytime i needed to relieve myself, the nurse would wheel this thing in for me. damn sian. never thot i'd be reduced to that state. i felt so horrible. not physically, but mentally. seriously i was so useless. heh. its quite funni la, junda came to visit. he came around 3.30pm so early! himself somemore. then amanda and meifang came. and then the whole bunch of canoeists came. they all thought he was my brother can! hhaa. quite funny. and charlene found out that they were primary school classmates. wow. then my classmates came and then -drumrolls- jieying came! tuesday was really a crowded day. haha i was so scared there would be complains. the canoeists brought me lotsa things! there's this xiaodingdang thing(which came in a capsule and i couldn open it la. rina opened it like so easily. gosh).. many cards.. food and flowers! haha yay. after that, chinyong came too. so paiseh everyone saw me in that ugly hospital gown that had laces lah! they asked me if it was my own! omg i felt so insulted. after everyone left..the place suddenly became quiet again. two ppl from the junior class came. it was SO weird can. but quite nice la. they came with a card.mum came. my appetite kinda increased. haha she shared my bed with me for awhile at night before she left home. so cute.

wednesday.day5. i was supposed to be able to go home. weirdly, the nurse din come to take blood. i thot myabe i can go home already. i was damn disappointed when the doctor came to say i had to stay on. i nearly died. i wanted to get out! RAH. it has become a routine that i wake at 8. lay in bed and wait for the doctor and attempt to eat whatever breakfast and had them clear an almost original untouched tray. so paiseh. watch sesame street at 9am. some dog show at 10pm and sonic at 11pm and then sleep til mum comes. mum would eat whatever hospital food because she orders them. i've become so pissed at the doctors and hospital because they dont let me go home that i totally refuse to touch their food. so childish but i was really angry. i would eat food that mum buys from outside. and sleep until i decide to watch tv again. 5pm there's high5. oh and there's this high5 advert that would perk me up everytime it is screened. lol. 5.30pm there's justice bao show. anyway today, i finally showered. feeling clean and nice, i read the Uweekly that huiwen bought. had crystal jade for dinner. haha yumm .at night, the routine would be to watch tv, sleep and keep waking up for temperature taking. sigh. the nurse would put the thermometer in ur mouth and walk away! its damn irritating when the thing beeps and i want to get back to sleep and they havent come to take that thing away! rah. tonight, some grandma was admitted and she's teochew speaking. cool. and i had visitors tonight too. liying and minyi. and then bong, ningfei and some junior came too. rah. lucki got mum to entertain them again. hah.

thursday.day6. yay got blood test. platelet count 90. sian cannot go home cause of fever again. this time round i got really upset. cause friday got dhsco practice! i cried. i was damn pissed with that indian doctor okay. i told her i got perf, them she say "never mind i can give you MC." wdh la. i dun want any stupid mc i just want to prac and perf? (i told my mum maybe i could just leave hospital for awhile and them come back if i wasnt discharged the next day.) and then she asked what i play. i said muscial instrument. she say "oh then you can perform for us in the hospital". omg i wanted to kill her for that. damn. so the whole of today i was so so determined not to have any fever. i got so desperate that i told them to give me panadol even if i had no fever. and i tried to drink alot of water and eat more. even asked for vitamin C from the doc to boost my immunity. i was SO determined to get out on friday. aunt, mum and dad came to visit. ate chicken pie bought by gugu1. hmm quite nice. mum bought KFC also. yummy! i told her i wanted mashed potato from 7-11. but she bought kfc instead! haha. imagine eating kfc at hospital. lol. dad stayed on for quite long. evening i had some nice food i think. at night, when i was almost deciding to sleep, the grandma's visitors came to give me fish porridge. they bought extra. wow. well, maybe eating more would help to lower my temperature. so i ate. anyway the grandma's visitors liked me alot i think. haha. yesterday her daughter offered me an egg for breakfast. she herself offered me a sweet. now porridge. haha. but i got help her comminucate with the nurses. cause the malay and indian nurses do not understand her. so i help translate her teochew lor.

friday.day7. wah. praying to go home. again,t hey never take blood from me. i was so worried. damn heng throughout the night no fever! i could almost see myself doing a small jig. and they took out the drip. finally the doctors came and said i could be discharged if the platelet count was okay, anything above 90. so this irene doctor came to take my blood. she again. this time she poke in the needle and said "uh-oh". omg. i wanted to die. and then i keep asking her ok annot she say yes. wah lau. then she said "your veins are small for a person who rows." diaos. anyway they took so so long to give the results. i was so damn anxious on the bed. watching TV. and dying to know if i can be discharged. they made me wait 3hours! then come to say i can be discharged! omg so happy! went to shower. and had my legs and arms nearly cramping again, like what happened on wednesday when i tried to shower. sigh. been out of action for so long. i din want to eat the last lunch at the hospital. seriously i havent really eaten any hospital food other than the pork porridge on the first day and that day huiwen force-fed me. always never finish. oh yes got another day breakfast was beehoon soup. quite nice so i ate half a bowl. mum and i ate the food while waiting for the docs and pharmist to give the medicine and discharge me. finally i was out. i have never ever got out of the room. unlike the woman opposite me who goes down to 7-11 daily. hah. anyway i was C.R.I.B (complete rest in bed) patient.

once i got out, went to dhs to practice! so happy that im out. anyway. they all said i became smaller. oh yes. and to my horror. i had to play the banhu solo for mangchun. sigh. anyway the day was fine. i ate alot at old airport road that night. i bet its just the hospital food la. although rina they all said the food's wonderful. hmm. oh yes and i was busy complaining about the irene doctor who doesn really know how to take blood. i have two blue-blacks on my arm now!

thanks to the angel bear and tigger and the cards and flowers and the tele and my mum and dad and everyone who visited and messaged me, i survived the 6 days in hospital. come to think of it, it'd be quite a memorable period. before i felt unwell, i thot to myself that i've never skipped training because i was sick. and -ta-dah- i skipped so many in one shot jus cause of a mosquito. a damned mosquito. but the miracle i hoped for came? so i could perform in gongyan. and yining said i said i hoped i was sick so i could skip the tests(i didn't!). and i did get the MCs. to sum up, maybe i unknowingly cursed myself. argh. NO pe or training until april28. and another bloodtest one week later.

saturday NJKC! i went down to support them :) all said i became smaller too. actually felt quite happy. cause i never diet and i never lost weight. and suddenly for nothing i did i lost weight! haha. watched wenqi and wenyi get into the semis.. wonder if it was me and wenqi, would we get into the semis? .. tml's rina and wenqi for k2 500 event. it'd been me if i wasnt sick. sigh.

totally chionged to be on time for the rehersal at VCH. i was so damned bloody lucky i got there just when they were going on stage! wore the concert attire over the jersey and shorts. and chionged onto stage just in time. wah i felt so angelic. so lucky! happiness :) heh. the whole day was spent with my batchmates (chinyong, junda and primero and gavin) and the juniors (kayee, waikit, peifen, khaiqi...siyuan's batch) and seniors (jieying, jiayin...). haha. funny thing kayee tell me "dun let history repeat itself" cause in sec4 i cried backstage cause of the stupid banhu! i rmbr huggin kayee and jiayin jus before i went onstage and guo laoshi helping me. he remembered too! haha. no no but not this time. im like frigging j2. not so childish. hurhur. rah i ate ALOT of siyuan's sweets! and i finshed the whole packet of chicken rice cause i've been dreaming of chicken rice since friday. heh. the two concerts went alright la. everything's just very nice and very dhsco-ish. saw the seniors like wangui, sharon, yuwei, zirui, mollie.. everything went fine and wonderfully! even saw junqiang's batch and chrystal! after the concert. went with mum and dad to old airport road to eat while waiting for bro to move instrus and go back to dhs. went to pick him from there after that. oh im gona miss gongyan and dhsco and the juniors so.

gavin, me, waikit:)

me and kayee =D

me and primero :)

me and peifen

me and kayee again !

jieying and i. heh

sharon and sharon:) lol

sunday was lazee lazee. went tuition and then after that went to watch NJKC. huiwen got fourth for k1 500 :) woo~ dinner was with family at macpherson ate turtle soup and black chicken soup. yummy! my appetite's growing like nobody's business. sigh school's starting for me.. after so long. campus superstar's chee yang! phew. lucki not renfred or geraldine.

monday tuesday school was slack. i slacked and went home immediately after school. missing gym and physicsS. sleeping at 7pm on monday and 6plus on tuesday, but dad woke me up at 8plus saying i mus study. bah. wednesday wanted to train but haoxia thwarted my plans by saying i cant go on water. sigh. never mind. i ran. but felt tired. went home lor. slept at 7plus but woken up by dad again. its damn irritating. i'm so tired can.thursday and friday went home early again. i am so piggy.my meals in school's terrible. i ate alot. one day i even ate two bowls of jap food. that's $5. sigh. oh yes. block tests? my maths was screwed la.disappointed. but i got an A for chem. omg im so happy. yesterday i went home and did crunches and attempted to do pushups.

today my arm is aching. sigh. how useless. i should attempt to regain my fitness soon. i'd be the slowest in running. and my pullups deproved! bah. and my hands shake when im eating. last night i dreamt of something like i was fighting a war. how scary :(. this morning, went to polyclinic to go for "checkup". the wait was horribly long. took blood test. i tell you. i think im jinxed or something. i was so afraid of bloodtests after the "uh-oh" experience that the irene doc gave me. the lab person attempted to take blood from my right arm. then she poke in already keep taking in and out moving here and there. then she asked another guy to come and said "i felt a vein here, but why..." okay, there was no blood flowing out at all! wonderful. maybe im bloodless. then they said "sory ah, got to take again". and then they put a plaster on my right arm! when there wasnt blood at all. comical huh. they took from my left hand. heng got blood but flow out so slowly and they took two tubes. wah, i really dunno whether to laugh or cry when no blood flowed out. sigh.

went home to sleep after delicious lunch of duck rice with garlic at serangoon gardens! im addicted to the duck rice. hehheh. i slept for so long..no wonder now im still awake at 2am. went suntec for dinner. so cooli tell you i was so happy for the whole night. first met mollie, lydia and mingyan at suntec think they going marche bah? then spotted yeekeow fundraising for YC. omg. i've got phobia of fundraising. and then guess what?!?!?! while we were scouting for a nice place to dine, i spotted liyu fundraising! i was so so so so happy. and that's why i decided to blog tonight. if not i'd be in bed now already. liyu rocks :) suddenly im not angry at her for not calling me that day. rah. den we continue walking..looking at the menu for some restaurant when i spotted gavin lookalike eating inside. and true enough, it was gavin! wah i tell you one day meet so many ppl. wonderful. somemore is all i like one. one liyu already enough..must give me gavin and the dhsco seniors :) hahaha. i was laughing and smiling over dinner at fish and co. eat until very full! yumm.. was reminded of hcanoe postcom at fish and co too. heh. i kept thinking whether should buy something for liyu to eat over dinner. but dinner ended at ten plus, which is like..she already left that place.urgh. anyway its a wonderful day :):):):):):):)

and now im home. happily blogging after so long..i guess i've covered more or less la huh. better go to bed soon. its 3am!tatas :)

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