memories-
Monday, August 07, 2006
mmmmm. full of thoughts now. after today's shicheng concert and everything that has happened.
was quite distracted for the whole of yesterday, as u know, i din wan this whole big thing to end. it wasnt easy for me to get back into this co thing den it ended so quickly. aiyah. now its the 'low' after my some time of 'highness'
today was quite a good day. but actually backstage interaction time wasnt alot, but quite quality time la. concert was jus ookay. but its the going out part after that which made me think quite abit. like again, i realised that my batch is really lousy. im d only girl. and the guys are like always tog. which kinda justify wad yexiang sad abt me being wit seniors huh. its always the same thing why im so sian abt co sometimes. looking at all the still standing batches, really veri xian mu.
in the end. left with the seniors, wenjing yexiang they all. so im kinda the small girl there. but well, they are a bunch of nice ppl. sit there n hear them talk lor. but i feel qt happy. jus veri yi2 han4 that my batch isnt like that. mmm, dunno when will i haf this kind of chance again. i hate it when everybody starts leading their own lives. arghs.
i dunno im in a veri irritated mood now. my ideal is to live around co ppl my seniors n juniors all my life. but reality isnt so. i totally havent had my fair share of fun. i really need a big big fun thing to jumpstart my studying, something like keep my mind in peace. i feel super insecure now.
argh. i need to talk to someone. a senior. jus need a listening ear who understands.
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-keeps me alive
