memories-
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
my heart feels a little more heavy after thinking abt certain things. sigh-
finally sch 're-opens'. woke up with a very lousy feeling. but as far as i know, it isnt really controllable. i think its involuntary. i felt so horribly antisocial. regret blogging. i felt 'endangered' about ppl knowing me. but it always lasts for a short time, thankfully, else i would not even be typing here.
returning of GP papers today. my worst subject, other than physics. hais. its damn demoralising. made me really worry about my A levels. i dunno how to put it across, but im really worried. i dunno how to study for GP. at least for physics, with more practice, im sure it'll improve.. generally, the class did quite badly la, highest only b4..hoho im considering sacking my tuition teacher. when im prepared to tell my parents my GP grades. save my GP, someone!
hence, really looked forward to going out- destress? ate the ever so famous BCM (ba chor mee), but i din think it was anything extraordinary, except the portion was enormous, considering that my appetite isnt small. jus to please weiye, gave him face and finished everything. but i dun really like bcm. weiye says 2nd time then will get addicted. i think i'll only eat a 2nd time if i can buy BCM w/o ba chor, w/o tau gei. hha -.- weiye suggested going to yishun. man im nt trusting him anymore. he took us on a 'joy' ride. bluff me say got direct bus. in the end we took 2 buses and a train and he said we took the longer route. gosh. blantantly wasting my time. walked through the stupid park to safra, with the intention of bowling, but amanda doesn want. so we had to walk a longgg way back to weiye's house. guess what? we played monopoly for 2hrs plus! singnan mad already. play until addicted. when we were discussing what time school ends tml, he said "wah so ex" instead of "wah so late".. anyway. one more outing before 30th sep- when my discount for movie ticket expires!
its always like me to link everything together. today walked through northpoint. i rmbr gg there to look at 97.2FM's outdoor activity in sec4. think it was fenying and guoxian hosting. quite nice :) oh yes i fundraised there before, for a few minutes, before realising that there was a stall nearby selling exactly the same pens -.- and i ate sakae there! there are memories everywhere!
back at home. was thinking about my bleak future in the bath. feeling down in the dumps. im 90% sure of entering any of the few unis in singapore, 1% lucky streak, 9% of failing GP and not being able to enter anywhere. i do not know why im wasting my time, money, and brains on overseas uni applications. im still considering signing up for SAT. tsk. my parents r strongly against SMS. but i think i wanna try? but its difficult being different.
anyway. i jus remembered! junda's taking 2 S papers too! haha.
hrmmm. im always too full to eat the goodies on the dining table! wanna try e mango dunno wad thing with the nice box!
tml getting back maths ppr. i dunno what'll happen if i dun get what i expect.. im jus praying that my statistics isnt really that lousy. A shud b reachable, but nt a very high one i guess. hence, tml would definitely be a better day than today. oh well. today's GP lesson was held with 63- lala's class at LT5. firstly, the LT's seats are really antique. it looks like a courtroom. and its really uncomfortable. i bet its from like how many million yrs ago. im glad i belong to s7 and not the arts ppl. secondly, you can really see the contrast btw the two classes. they really laugh at the slightest thing possible. i wonder how the lesson will be like tml...
19:57
-keeps me alive
