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Tuesday, April 17, 2007
495 posts.. should celebrate on my 500th entry huh?
i came online with e intent to blog. i kep thinking to myself, its times like this, that i long for the company of a friend, but not requiring me to speak, just satisfied with having each other's company..that always seems like a perfect solution for my lousy moods..
i think im jus waiting for myself to go to sleep..if i think im being lazy not trying to continue on the writing of my personal statement, which contains stuff that i think im thinking. im a big weirdo that i think ppl cant accept that what i think is true since i cant even verify it myself. mmm e dsta final interview seemed like it screwed itself up.. or probably i screwed it up by saying things which im not even sure of myself..sigh frankly speaking, that was ranked pretty high up on my list. i guess i jus haf to live with it as usual..two more other coming up. do u know im damn sick of them? and i get even sicker when my parents tell me to prepare..
come to think of it. i hate ppl telling me exactly what to do..when i know what to do. it gets on my nerves really. like telling me to study when exams are round the corner is absolute rubbish to me, dampens my mood for studying. AND telling me to start applying for universities when im already vexed enough about what to apply for is the ultimate wrong thing to say. argh.
okay, gd, i feel myself getting more n more tired. before i decided not to be lazy and to come online to visit, my fingers kept itching to message ppl..its been like this for a few days. something is missing in my life. lol!
ive been a in pretty bad mood recently..i still need a hug (ref to spaces entry). or maybe a half-hug? -looks at mogu doggie above me..maybe that'll do as a substitute. i used to hug it whenever im down. know what? worse thing is i always cant figure why im not in the best of moods..its nerve-wrecking!
some concert's coming up this saturday at vj.. oh man! i jus realised! i thought my test was next week..but its this week! thought i can have a peace of mind after thursday, but im so wrong. i wanted to say, hopefully i will be after Wednesday next week, but i realised that i'd be wishing myself un-well..hmm liddat i rather be bugged for as long as posssible, but please space them out! =)
cant remember if i mentioned earlier..or i deleted that line, but my fingers and heart have been itching for the longest time to message people! but my brain contributes to the positive feedback system..when it stops me from messaging, the more i feel like doing so! hhaha..
work today is pretty relaxing. i always feel relaxed without jamie around. hha. frankly speaking, i love taking instructions from her. but w/o these instructions bugging me, no weight on my shoulders! wah, tell u, today i was so afraid of jean! i was talking to jamie on e line abt balloon brochure n jean got so sensitive and i dunno, sounded so indignant as she rattled on about telling her and ordering more. i dunno, i wasnt afraid, but i was like ???? huh? we weren even talking about her! i din even dare to mention that she's the one ordering to jamie..
but hey man, this new colleague that i have, well relatively new la..prob 2 weeks? called joey, she's a pretty nice one too!
oh yes, this should warrant a celebration: i went to the gym today. yeah man, after dragging myself out of the bus when 1 second ago, i was sleeping like a log! im tired. havent been sleeping well these few days. my mood's been affecting everything- work, sleep, n my appetite! roars
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