memories-
Sunday, July 08, 2007
arloe. only agenda for today is driving at 7pm. im irritated at how my instructor plans his time. first he tells me 4pm, then 3.30pm, den cancelled, and now 7pm! then again, im worried for my practical coming up soon so i just gotta go. i think im irritated at the amount of money spent already. im gonna be damn sad if i dun pass... im e kind of person who like to b praised. if i keep getting put down, i'll just sink lower n lower. sighs
how come its seems like the 'bad mood' day again? i keep treating myself as a xiao mei mei. feel very hesitant to accept the invitation to the group. i just haf no confidence in myself..i will even give way to those younger than me. -shrugs-
one thing im excited abt today is buying a keyboard protector for my fujitsu.
acty i woke up today thinking abt going to AF (animal farm) to learn e ropes from ben, whos working there. but i managed to catch jean online, who told me there was actually nothing much. she has signed us up for e race..i dun wanna be e one who drags the whole team down, im gonna do a little reading and running. e rubber duckies!
why do i keep going back to thinking how nice, if i could be around ppl, who doesn talk to me..and just be around physically..heh
lets talk abt yesterday at work. tainer planning was very 'good' i would say, best i ever noticed. system was down again..so i had a little fun in call cen supporting. then chief comes over, jixiaoing. i dun like his tone. pulled tainers from hippo to help 3rd duck..so two of e hippos had no tainers for last 3 trips. wonder if ts no spport from tainers or lousy planning. but it was no mean feat to work so many tours back to back..thank you xiaoxin n weiqi for responding positively to my calls =)
went to dill's wedding..sat captn chew's car. hmm yesterday..they were all arranging whose car to take and what.. it seemed to me i was out of the whole thing. issit because i work office? it felt weird. i wanted to mingle. and kym came along, taking the lift as well. so i sat with her, but i talked to ting on the other side instead. i wanna be part of them. went prata house jus outside my house to sit around with tommy, ben n huiying. its been a long time since i last saw tommy. ahah. well,its chalet tml.. hope i dun sink into one of my bad moods..
marina square no more after today.. friend felicia no more at work after monday..everything is changing! i hope some things can change for e better..
13:10
-keeps me alive
